Sherry's Lounge

The thought of time being temporary has been floating in my mind for many years.  Its cold hard truth has hit me many times in the loss of loved ones.  While in my heart I know and believe that my loved ones are in a better place, free from all the suffering…surviving them is still quite hard.  The phrase of, ‘It will get better in time’ only glosses over the fact that it doesn’t actually ‘get better’ we just learn with each passing day to live with the loss.  I don’t wonder anymore why people must pass on…I know it is a part of life.  Each of us will one day pass on, leaving behind people who love us.  It’s not a very comforting thought but one more of harsh reality.

As I am facing my newest loss of a dear and wonderful friend, I am still finding it very hard to swallow.  My dear Joshua was a man who would truly give you the shirt off his back, the last dollar in his wallet, always with the mindset that all he gives out will be returned.  It has always been the case, as I have even witnessed on several occasions spending time with him.  Joshua gave me hope that the human race will survive…and maybe with more people like him in the world we would have a chance of truly living full and rewarding lives.  I am still swallowing the large lump in my throat when I realize that his life was cut so very short and how so many people will miss him.  I guess I am still learning not to question why someone so young and full of life should be taken from a world where he was teaching everyone he came in contact with…but I think I am failing.  I know there are many more people, such as his partner, his family, best friends, and his patients who he’s helped who are struggling with his loss much more than I am.  I am at least comforted and relieved that I have many memories of Joshua to help me learn to live with his loss…watching a movie together, eating dinner, sharing a joke.  I can see his smiling face and hear his comforting voice and though it does soothe me a little…it makes me long to be with him again.  ‘Shome is where the heart is’ and you will always be in my heart Joshua.  I am so very honored to have known you.

Our time here on earth is so very temporary…we are not promised tomorrow.  This is something we should always keep in the back of our mind to help us live our lives to the fullest.  When my day comes to pass on, I hope those I leave behind will not mourn me but remember all our times together and know that I will take my love for them with me.  I’m not saying that I wish my life were coming close to an end…but I do count the days when I will once again be reunited with my parents, grandmother, and cherished friends.  Remember to live each day as if it were your last…never be afraid to tell someone you love them…and always give of yourself.